Have you ever wake up in the cherish morning with headache, feeling overwhelmed, anxious and lost? When the morning bird called you out but you were on the bad mind state. Those kind of feelings are always come with me everyday. There were no beautiful morning since the past two years. Overthinking cost me insomnia and feeling lost. Loneliness is my new friend. Good pals!.  Sometime I wonder what is happen to me? Am I the only one who facing this feeling? Or maybe all people does but they dont show it much. 

I still remember the moment when I have to take sleeping pills or paracetamol just to make me sleep.I tried many ways as people said to do some activities before sleep; gym, journaling, meditation and even painting. But still none of them are working for me. If its not i am pretty sure I am gonna stay awake for the next three days. It comes with many possibility why we are facing trouble sleeping and feeling tired during the day—one of main reason because we spend too much on screen. I believe it can be true. So many research about the affect of we spend too much on screen such as tend to having overthinking and lack of sleeping quality. Relationship with your real one must be affected on this. 

I try to break the chain by slowly not too glued on my phone. First thing first, I set maximum limitation of screen time only 1 hour for every social media that I sign in ( I failed it sometimes lol). Then one day, I couldnt sleep at all and get out from my bed on mid day. My head was so dizzy and i feel like I wanna faint. Then i looked up to youtube and come pop up on video that really caught my eyes. I went crazy clicking the video because there were one woman figure I really adore so much. She is Marissa Annita. 

I cant even describe how much she is so adorable and inspiring. She is like wholesome for me. Back to the video (i’m gonna put the link below), she had interview with Dave Hendrik (he’s also lovable and inspiring, he taught me a lot about life lesson on his social media platform). They both having really nice conversation until i realized I cant blink my eyes watching them talking. The good theme of this was Marissa Annita had already delete her social media account since she did not even remember. She thought social media took her life so much and change the way people behavior. It leads to consumerism and overthinking. Pretty sure we can related to that too. 

I did not think twice, I took my phone and and directly deactivated Instagram and Twitter. Those two apps took of my time too much. After I deactivated them I deleted the apps as well. At first it kinda hard for me because you know, your finger gonna lead you to go to the screen. First day and second was the hardest one. I keep looking at my phone even there were nothing to see. But day by day passed already I can finally put my mind to not busy my self on phone. I find many ways to have fun without glued on screen. I am having really nice talk with my friends, doing my hobby and exercise more to keep balance both mind and body. 

Today is my first week without social media and i am gonna give you update how it is like. I may gonna go back writing on my blog and this platform still the best place to my brain dumping. Oh ya dont forget to mention please look up this video and tell me what is your thought here.

See you!