I still remember when the last time I had a relationship…

Upsss I mean the last time I had a boyfriend.

Kembali ke kalimat keatas , hmmmm aku rasa sekitar tahun lalu, if I am not mistaken . And I never being in love ever since then.

Disaat generasi milenial meng-agung agung-kan relationship goals, mungkin aku terlalu sibuk bermain dengan kucing peliharaanku. Dan ketika segelintir pasangan mengabadikan moment mereka berkencan di Path, mungkin aku cukup sedikit peduli dengan memberikan emoticon love didalamnya. Seeing a woman on screen holding pretty huge-ass bouquets of flowers meanwhile I was busy slept with stranger. What is definition of love nowaday ? I never in love of my entire previous –ass year. I haven’t been involved with anyone.

People comes and goes

I let them walked away

And never tried to hold them back

Tear down all night

Breathless

Pretending like nothing happened  to keep all right

Tell everyone “I’m okay”

And set them free -like I care-

But truly

I missed being in love

Being the one

Being “hey I miss you” person

Being “ how was your day, babe?” person

Being “ hey, meet me after work I pretty damn miss you” person

Being everything in someone’s life and put my shoes on him.

Namun aku masih sulit membedakan mana wants and needs. Mungkin aku terlalu membutuhkan mereka ketika kesepian dan menyingkirkan ketika semua nya kembali normal. Yesss I’m the one of those bastard you’ve ever seen.

But hey, aku masih sejenis perempuan yang masih ingin disentuh dan dicintai. Aku masih perempuan yang sedang belajar untuk  mempercayai atas lisan dari kaum adam.

Aku masih perempuan yang sebutuh-butuhnya dinomer satukan.  

Cause you know, I am still wondering that all of guy only want our body or kinda sex.

One thing that crossed my mind if my friend suggest me” hey , my friend wants to know you. He said you're  kinda girl he likes and I swear he is good guy ever you really wanted ” and I was like “ oh, he just wants sex I guess”

Se-skeptis itu .